My bitchy lif3

Sengal jap :D

2009-06-11T11:15:00.002+08:00

Tadaa~ result day menjelang tiba. Takut gile okek~ Kekejap bukak website, takut tapi mahu. Patutnye hari ni gi shopping jalan2 beli baju baru tapi entah la mcm cancel je pulak. Transport takde, abah gi keje ^________^ takde sapo nak hanta gi shopping mall. Lol mcm sangat gedik umo dh 23 tapi masih nak abah hanta gi mane2 pon. I will never ever survive on my own that's why I always need a man in my life. I've been having em all my life and I cant live without one. Ngek~ okey la tu Hawa dijadikan utk Adam kan kan kan?

Maybe petang kot result keluar tak pasti. But i've told my RAN online friends kalau misalnye I fail one of the subjects I won't be playing RAN the whole day. WALALALALALA mcm emosi gile je ayat tu. Ape2 pon wish me luck la walaopon dh telambat for that. Ngek ngek ngek ngek (pale otak dh senget)..

p/s: Ade byk gamba mase jln2 hari tu tapi tatau bile nk upload.. maybe next post kot ^__^

scared I taw~

2009-06-10T15:47:00.003+08:00

Today will be the last day I will have my 100% happiness. Tomorrow is the day where I will be frozen and probably lost half of my charismatic value that I could live this life well. What am I talking about? What else could it be other than.. jeng jeng jeng..~ RESULTS DAY. Oh my the truth is I took 7 subjects last trimester and 3 of em, I didn't do so well. Basically I did really bad. Im super nervous about tomorrow that I could hardly do anything.

2 weeks holiday feels like nothing to me. I feel like I need more time from all the exhaustion. Not enough freedom. I submitted a letter of request for a certain subject. Guess it is a little bit too late for that? I am just gonna do whatever it takes to go for it. I need to focus on a lot of things next trimester eventhough there will only be 4 subjects. 1)Driving license 2)MUET 3)Request of subject 2nd attempt and 4)Study for my supp paper (if I failed any which I have a strong feeling that I will).

With the new presidency policy from our oh-so-great president, there are so many new rules. Stupid rules actually. I hope they're going to realise that MMU is an IPTS not IPTA so we dont go by those kind of rules. Fuzzy helped submitted the letter just few seconds ago. I hope everything works fine. Hopefully God will be on my side cuz I can't bare the pain of having to be stuck there for another year. I wanna go out there and get a job, get my own money and spend it unwisely :D

p/s: Gratz to my babe IRNI DAYANA for the success of going for the AIR ASIA training. I know you could do it you super-sexy-beyatch :) good luck and all the best xoxoxoxo

Jodoh Pertemuan Di Tangan Tuhan

2009-02-19T14:03:00.002+08:00

Quote unquote, we've heard that phrase so many times yet when the relationship broken down we suddenly have lost all hopes and faith, why is this happening? mental dan fizikal kite selalu mengatakan yang kite ni dah bersedia utk menghadapi dugaan bercinta, tapi betul ke? i've faced this situation before, losing someone when u're on top of the "love" peak and suddenly being pushed down and down and down crash to the ground, pedihnya hati hanya tuhan yang tahu, memarahi nasib, blaming everything that is happening to u is unfair, kite tak boleh melawan takdir, tapi boleh ke kite mengubah nasib yg telah ditentukan? to me yes, sometimes the path for success has been shown to us, its really up to u to choose which way u want to live ur life, same goes with love, tak semuanya hubungan yg goyah akan berakhir dengan perpisahan, semua masalah ada penyelesaian, unless when both parties are unable to be with each other anymore, or when theres no more love from both or either one, then we can't push ourselves to love or be loved that way

Breaking up, sape yg tak pernah break up? semua org pernah merase sakit ditinggalkan kekasih or meninggalkan kekasih atas sbb2 tertentu, but like i said life must go on, i see my friends facing all sorts of problems, but they stand up on their two feet and move on with their life, and along the way when they're ready and lucky enough, they will find this one perfect man that they can cherish their life together, i have found my prince, and i hope my girls will find theirs too.

p/s: lapanye ~_~

Seribu malam tanpa rasa

2009-02-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

Im officially has lost hope and i will stop putting too much hope on anything, maybe bcuz im so used to getting everything that i want, after everything is prepared, it didnt exactly turn out as planned, it upsets me so much especially in this condition of mine, it seems too early to fall asleep now, but im just gonna go lie down, no energy, no feelings, no lover, just another night sleeping with empty feeling ^_^v getting oh-so-used-to-it, just keep em coming baybeh~

p/s: happy valentine's day to all the cute couples out there, have a wonderful moment with ur love ones

Rambut Baru Alaf Baru

2009-02-12T10:18:00.005+08:00

Yipee, im an early riser, sangat ceria pagi ni, semalam sronok shopping cash melayang, oh mai god i love my new hair-do, uncle halim has magical fingers, then pastu lepak2 kat alamanda (the only shopping mall yg wujud kat putrajaya..) and beli sehelai baju, hanya sehelai sbb tummy kate jgn boros, semalam kene lecture baik2 tapi tegas ngan my tummy, saye dh insaf skarang, pagi2 pon makan biskut je, tanak bazir2 dh ^_^ nnt tummy saye jd garang hihihi, newayz this is my piccccccture :D nyummmmmmm luv u hairrrrrrrrr luv u tummyyyyyyy, thx for letting me do this hair :)

Valentine's Day Countdown

2009-02-11T10:55:00.002+08:00

Honestly i dont celebrate this crappy day but somehow its fun to hangout with ur love ones and ur friends as well, so my tummy and i have decided to go lepak-ing kat TGIF this saturday ngan my other friends, so kiteorang nak buat double date, yummy mummy betul, he told me its his favourite lepak-ing place, ive never been there, i know its expensive, memandangkan kami masih student abg la yang kene tanggung kos pemakanan kami :D cayang awak muaks2

Sem ni dah start and its my second week, im still in my oh-so-lazy-mood, same goes with my other friends, but they're still going, i've been skipping alot of classes, this is just my way, the first few weeks i'll be the laziest monster in the world, then lepas tu struggle until the end of the trimester, thats why im suchhhhhhhhh a "BRILLIANT" girl :D, abg promise me kalau dpt 1 A = rm 500 ekkekee jgn tarik balik janji tu, susah tu nak dpt A hohohohoho

Sangat seronok saye memandangkan Sabtu ni jugak will be our 2nd month anniversary, he makes me so happy, after the whole broken down relationship ive been with the past 6 years, finally ive managed to stay alive and being happy with my tummy, walaupon kite mcm kopi dan susu, thats what makes this relationship so yummylicious, mix em together u get the best drink ever

Hari ni nak gi buat rambut, semua ditanggung halal oleh abg, jap lagi claim balik, sry abg budak2 kecik mmg la takleh pegang duit byk2, nnt abis ^_^ the money u gave me pon dh habishhhh, mane pegi? masuk tummy~ mkn byk2 utk jd hepi, ok gtg frens dh tunggu, salon time bebeh muahahahaha

p/s: tummy tido byk betul ><"

Party night - exhausted gile siot

2009-02-05T20:50:00.003+08:00

Last night was ONE CRAZY NIGHT, kiteorang celebrate bday hazrul yang ke 25, hepi besday abg hazrul anda sudah officially tua :D tahniah one more year to go dh layak jd suami org dh huhuhuhu, newayz mlm tadi we all celebrated at the super cool V.I.P room redbox @ the curve, punye la ramai "tetamu" yg hadir, i was really shocked to see the numbers of people who attended, segan silu pulak saye kan, tapi segan silu tu tak lame, after 2 hours sitting there i was on my toes again singing and screaming mcm suare ni sedap sgt je and the consequence for that action is that i kinda lost my voice, tahniah ila tahniah :D

Bukan tu je, yesterday i got my haircut aswell, sgt pendek okek, penat2 menjage rambut ni selame 1 thn dan akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua T_T, tangisan tak berlagu kedengaran di dlm hatiku, selamat tinggal rambut panjangku T_T, abg nan kate lawa, tapi hanye diriku yg mengetahui kesakitan yg ku alami akibat pemergian separuh dr bulu badanku, bukan tu je i got my new glasses aswell, its black super gothic colour, Nad77 yg pilihkan, mentang2 die minat gothic everything turns black for me also, tak rase selesa sangat lagi, im still walking here and there without my glasses on, sangat longgar, cermin mate ni perlu diketatkan lagi, bcuz of this glasses i have decided that im gonna highlight my hair by the end of this month, tunggu abg nan sponsor sbb die adelah seorang bf yg paling cantik jelita dlm dunia ni, lebih cantik dr angelina jolie :D

After the whole partying "thang", dlm pukul 4 pagi we reached Cheras semate mate ingin mengikut kehendak ku yg merindui tummynya :D i miss my tummy so much so i made my cousin drove me to Cheras at 4 am just so that i can spend like 1 hour time with him :D tapi saye sgt satisfied and happy hehehehe best, ade yg lagi best dr tu is that my tummy ade jerawat yg paling besa dlm dunia :D nyum2, sgt comel mcm sebuah bijik kelentit melekat di pipi, yeay abg telah berjaye menjadi perempuan sejati tahniah abg tahniah :D

Right now I am doing the things that I dont usually do which is cleaning up the room, i can say that the room is REALLY CLEAN, which is almost impossible for it to happen huhuhuhu, nak buat camne bosan gile dah la esok klas pukul 8 pagi, watahel betul taking 7 subjects, i dont think i can manage but ill try my best :( esok nak kene jumpe someone to settle some stuff, jika tiada aral melintang akan ku suruh abg nan bawa ku kesisinya :D jika ada aral melintang akan ku menyorok di bwh katil sampai la hari selase, sekian terima kaseh

p/s: nak upload picture, tapi sume kat reza, nyum2 tak saba nak edit utk menutupi kecelakaan di mukaku ini (jerawat..)

Honeymoon

2009-01-10T18:19:00.003+08:00

Yeay abish dh exam, ingatkan hari ni boleh jalan2 carik mkn kat cheras, sbb ade org tu nak masak, then last minute cancel, sbb? aku ade masalah yg tak perlu diceritakan, but bcuz of that terpakse la menahan rindu dendam ni :( tapi takpe mase masih byk lagi

This morning i was late for my exam, there was an argument between me and Nan, our first argument made me so devastated and thank God we settled in a peaceful way, peaceful in a sense of i did not throw any bricks to his face or so forth :D

So today, im just gonna waste most of my time playing Ran Online, that is my salvation and i have nothing else to do, saye rindu awak, saye syg awak :)

note: feel so empty inside :(

75% kelegaan

2009-01-09T12:50:00.002+08:00

Deng, the question was tough as hell, when i first saw the questions, my head started spinning, dlm hati "takleh buat ni, nak tibai pon tak reti", ape taknye, satu haram definition aku tak hafal, so whatever la kan, exam tu pon dah lepas, dibuatnye kene supplementary, then so be it, ive given up on this paper

tomorrow last paper, tak saba nak habis, nak jln2, nak gi potong rambut, nak pegi jalan2 carik makan :D nyumzy, hari connection cam tahi sket2, tatau la kenape broadband ni camni, baya sket nye mahal, sorang je plak tu boleh gune, then lembab smacam, malaysia belum maju ke?

smalam time study, i spent 1 hr singing all the songs yg mmg kalau org tengok people will say "dah critical dh budak ni", yes i have to admit, mlm tadi mmg critical, manje pon len mcm, sian ngan abg nan saye kene menjage perangai saye yg tetibe seperti budak kecik, dont worry bebeh, pas ni dh tak jdi camtu dh :D im stronger now bcuzzzzzzzzzzzz exam dh habis, im so vulnerable time exam je, pas ni dah jd tuff balik, heh heh

ape babi sgt konektion ni, nak main game pon susah, tahap kedengkian yg critical, tadi gi mkn kat de rasa, sedap siot nasi tomato, tapi asal baju bau busuk? member kate mkn kat cafe tertutup mmg camtu, but dem this is the first time baru terlalu busuk, im so sleepy, rase nak tido jap, tapi nak men game, mane penting? tido ke game? abg nan ni mane tak bgn2 lagi, haihz flirt ngan org lain kang kene babap, bosan T_T

note: tatau nak ckp ape, slamat bercuti MMU-ans

Tahap kelegaan = 50%

2009-01-07T19:17:00.003+08:00

So hari ni tamatlah riwayat satu lagi exam paper, the truth is from my point of view the chances for me to get any As this trimester sangatlah tertipis sekali, its not like im a lazy bum and not studying and doing everything last minute, try put urself in my position, within 6 weeks you have to coop with all the bullshits assignments, kalau ambik 1 atau 2 subject it is considered fair for you but if you are taking 4? during short trimester? its freaking heavy bebeh (saye takleh sebut the word fuck dh, nnt kene tibai ngan abg nan :(..)

So 2 down 2 more to go, Im counting the days, Sabtu kluar ngan my babes and Isnin out to Genting with my bitches~ ahhh freedom, nape when there is no exam rase mcm mase bejalan ngan sangat cepat, tp during exam week mase bejalan ngan slow motionnye

Tahap kesengalan ku dh takleh blah dah, i am msging everyone that is available in my friend list, eventhough dah tak bertegur sapa beberape thn and i hardly know these fella, im still talking to them, i hate being alone during exam hour, dulu ade nadia, skarang tinggal macha, fulamak wey rhyme siot :D

Abg nan :( nape busy memanjang :( tak suke tauuuuuuu :( after abis exam aku ajak die gi jalan2 tengok wayang, die gelak je, watafish? tengok wayang pon pakai duit okek, anything that uses money i pretty damn appreciates it, skarang ni bile boring2 and teringat kat die, akan ku goyangkan loceng kaki ku ini, hehe ive been wanting this for quite awhile now, dulu nak beli je mesti ade something stopping me form buying it, best la ade loceng, dah leh buat tarian cam cite hindustan

note: hari ni stadi kat campus, nadia77 blanje pizza, moge murah rezeki babe :)

pundeknye keling =.=

2009-01-06T14:30:00.003+08:00

Sorry la if got indians reading this, but i dont think so ade pon, just nak melepaskan stress yang membara, i hate staying in this house, bayangkan la im studying sedap2 je dah la esok ade exam, otak dh penuh membara ngan information then suddenly sejenis bau yg tak dikenali, oh let me re-phrase that, suatu bau yg CUKUP dikenali menerpa ke arahku, damn it really damn it i fucking hate the smell its making my otak bengap ok

which part of "DONT FUCKING BAKAR YOUR KEMENYAN" dont they understand? psychopath no matter how religious u are, agak2 la, ni bukan rumah keling je, aku ni ape? half keling half melayu ke? damn, now my hair smells like shit !!! I feel dizzy, rase nak pengsan, help :(

two of them nak blah, my face looked upset tapi dlm hati tuhan je tahu bertape gumbiranya hatiku ini, cepat2 la chow, i cannot tahan la, whoever yg baka kemenyan tu, oh god, the more i say no the more they do it, when i dont obey the rules, aku plak kene maki, i hate it so much, they're so bias and unrealistic, cant concentrate :(

note: dah la washing machine tu tak pernah kosong, dh seminggu baju tak pernah di angkat, nak angkat geli, takut tekene najis, damn gile babi anti these people la skarang ni, berdosakah aku?

Countdown till XM ends

2009-01-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

Isnin, "SELASE", "RABU", Khamis, "JUMAAT", "SABTU", the days with super duper gigantic caps are the days i have to go thru h3ll, im not saying that I am fully prepared, but yeah I am ready to take the challenge, all my exams start at 9am, i have to admit i am definitely not a morning person, i have no idea how i am going to get up for tomorrow's test, im fucking nervous

Nervousness creeping over my cold body, i feel sick, cough, yeah im sick, cough again, im not gonna take any meds, i need to stay awake, coffee, not working, body totally am immuned with the ingredients included in those coffee, need to stay awake, still early, body getting tired, fingers getting slower, mind getting dumber.....................

Staying alive is what i have to do now, all my friends are struggling, why cant i? what is the difference between me and them? they're human, they eat food, they shit junks, they drink water, they sleep on a pillow, so what makes them so special and able to stay awake up till tomorrow? hmmmm............... i can feel the jealousy within me increasing and it is about to explode

note: dont read, its just my mind wandering over some foolish stuff that is running around my head, get out from my head u jerk, fuck need to study, 4 more heavy chapters and im off to bed, need... to... REST

stress nye jgn dekat kalau tak cukup kuat

2009-01-04T09:58:00.003+08:00

xm lagi 2 hari, tetibe byk plak masalah, yes i admit i brought this problem to myself, who do i turn to when i have problems? him, but ended up? its killing me even more

tak suke bile kene marah, tak suke bile kene perli, i hate everything that is happening today, its sickening and giving me headaches, i just took several sleeping pills to let my head calm down and put me back to sleep, i need to get out from this misery

misery, i thought ive left it back in the year 2008, but it keeps on chasing me, i keep on choosing the wrong turns, can someone guide me?

xm cibai, xm babi, xm sux, period pon sux, tak suke menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci menci

ok all that times with infinity......... thats the result of what im feeling right now, full with hatred and revenge and i have nobody to turn to

note: im sick, i hate, im having my period, what else could go wrong?

1/1/09 rase sgt pelik

2009-01-01T11:31:00.003+08:00

YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

new year is crucial, last night my girlfriend and i (yes just the both of us..) went out on an adventurous journey to alamanda, it was a last minute plan to watch a movie, any movie that is available is fine with us, we arrived 5 minutes before the movie started and we got a front row seat which is REALLY GOOD bcuz it helps me (org yg rabun2..) to have a clearer view :D, we spent the night till 2.30 am and i ended up sleeping till 8 am

around 3 am, org tu called saying wanna have "breakfast" and i repeat "BREAKFAST" with me in the morning, so yes i woke up at 8am !! and voila~~~~ mane die? sampai skarang tak sampai2 lagi, sah2 tengah tido, pepenat je mandi makeup2, demmit, then tadi baru la denga suare die, yerp absolutely right baru pas bangun, first day of january sudah memberikan hari pendarahan ke ulu hatiku

the FUNNY part is that, ade org tu dh pandai buat blog, cececey :P he is turning 30 soon, mak aih tape tape biar umur tua asalkan hati mude, huhuhu congrats sayang for your blog, and fuzz, HUGZZZZZzzZZz happy new year sry for last nite it was a last minute plan, and FARHAN !! muakkkkkkkkksssssssssss happy birthday, nanti kakak belikan toys k? hahaha

note: baru je azam nak kuruskan bdn dh melantak lasagna mlm tadi, demm mmg termati kat situ je la kan azam baru ni

tag: Aznan

Menci menci

2008-12-30T14:05:00.001+08:00

I woke up freakishly early this morning, my body has developed a weird sense of GEDIKZ style, cant watch tv more than 10 minutes cant look at the computer screen more than 15 minutes, i have no idea what i've done in the past life but i surely am having a very delightful living style, as normal as other kids :D

so the conclusion for my daily blog is:

menci ok tak suke bile demam, menci menci sangat, menci to the max

im going back to cyber, tapi abah cam buat2 lupe plak nak hanta anak die kan, tatau terbang ke mane entah

note: ma god exam is in 7 days, satu bende pon tak blaja lagi, ni sume hezry, ika and nan nye pasal, demmit

tag: ika

x-treme sangat

2008-12-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

today is a wonderful day for me, i woke up with a headache disturbing my life, totally worth the living, so as usual i went to the toilet and peed (obviously..), did not brush my teeth (god bless me for that..) and i went to my cousin's room asking for a euphamol, i felt better, then right now i am feeling d pain again, i was on the phone with "him" and we talked about several things that i think kinda offended one of our friends, i did not mean to tell him but i needed to know and im sorry for not keeping it as a secret, i have no idea why i should + im so sick of keeping secrets, enough with all that aiteeeeeeeeeeee :D

(itching butt..) so whats next, everybody congratulates me for having someone new in my life, i've been keeping it a secret for awhile now (not years tho.. just weeks..) so now it's the time to reveal, i have to admit i am happy, he gives me lots of food, kind of remind me of someone :D (you know who you are..) this is part of our conversation that made me so happy till my head feels like exploding:

him: dah laa dia kata ila ni cute
him: eee
me: eeeeeee ye keeeeeee
me: sukenyeeeeeee
him: pandai ko pillih gf
me: EEEEE SUKENYE
me: kekekekeke
him: walaupon dia pakai jalan ketapi
him: tapi muka dia cute
me: fuk
him: wah bangga saya
him: saya ada sorang gf sayang orang kata cute
me: die prasan ke ila pakai braces
him: ske ske ske ske
him: perasan
him: sebab dia kata ila kalau ketawa terbbukak semua nyer

note: that is what abg sabri told him about me, im not sure whether it is true or not, hopefully he is not making this up cuz if he did i swear to god i will shave his eyebrows

ok half of the above I LIKE the rest sedikit memalukan okek? but whatever it is YEAY someone puji cumel, gile lame ok tak kene puji, finally kembang seinci my ass, time to eat again? hungry :D

note2: thx abg sabri :D bestnye anda .. weeee

Gedikz OKKK

2008-12-29T07:54:00.000+08:00

okek setelah sekian lame.. i haven't touched this darnn thing i am back again. reason: everyone has one.. jealous ok.. alot of interesting things has happened and i am sure will happen anytime soon tapi tak jot down.. merugikan~ the latest news about me started 3 weeks ago.. gile babi best part ni ok~ kutuk mengutuk session.. here we go:

14/12: officially couple ngan abg nan~ fulawey finally ade bf ah after 8 months of being single and in sorrow.. that night itself i go lepak-ing at his house jumpe balik kwn2 mIRC yg lame.. ulala diorang sgt masyuk.. jumpe hezry jumpe ika.. jumpe geoffrey -- muke hensem tapi prangai cam sial..
16/12: geoffrey msg msg me ngan muke yg sgt menyedihkan then bcuz im such a lovely friend i asked him why? and he gave me a warning: "do not fall inlove with my friend from a2" -- ouch best gile belom ape2 dh kene mcm tu kan? ngehehe then he made me promise not to tell anyone but the fun part is that he told ika about my conversation with him.. thx alot "friend"..
24/12: mat salleh tu buat hal lagi.. siap boleh canang keburukan ika, nan and hezy.. ape cite beb.. lu dh buat gua menyirap.. gua pon akan bukak la sume crite ni.. so bcuz im such a professional actress.. korek2 rahsia.. sume crite yg sekian lame telah disimpan olehnye.. telah ku canangkan.. siap save log lagi.. huhuuh revenge is sweet (hidung bedarah..)..

seriously, i had the best moment hanging out with those 3.. they can cook very well and best of all i got a friend yg mmg power gile babi dlm bidang gossip2 ni.. i love that.. i hate those kind of girls yg nampak pendiam but belakang2 mcm tahi~ sry ya kalau sape2 terase.. hopefully none of u girls are like this.. sedih oo kene backstab..

note: xm tak lame lagi.. boleh buat relek2.. ape ade dengan glabah?